So loooooong time since I have actually spoken about myself.
Second professional year has started. Our subjects now are Forensic Medicine, Microbiology, Pathology & Pharmacology. We also started our ward postings. During the course of a year & half we are posted in the Departments of Medicine, Surgery, Community Medicine, Gynaecology, Paediatrics, Ophthalmology & ENT.
My first posting was in Surgery.
Let me give you a background here:
My only doubt when joining the MBBS course was anything and everything related to surgery.
Why do we have to see what goes on in the surgery ward when we are not interested in surgery at all?
Why can't they just sort us into students interested in MD & MS right in the beginning?
And other infinite illogical impractical whys...
Cut to Present:
I LOVED my posting. I would have lost out on so much if someone at Medical Council of India thought like I did earlier. In fact my posting caused me to rethink my post graduation plans... Well, that still depends on other factors like whether I crack NEET or crack under its pressure, the rank I manage to clinch - things which still need time and a lot of smart preparation.
Things are going steady on the study front... Hope they continue to get better with time...
I have my share of highs & lows when it comes to marks. No matter how much I try to make myself understand, I lose to myself. I still fight for every mark I lose. I don't fight with anyone else but myself. It's like I fail myself if I lose out on anything... I am both - the most adoring fan & the worst critic for myself.
So if I am snappy and you know my marks already, stay away till I am smiling again. Else you might just meet the wrong Fatima Khan. ;)
I am competitive. Perhaps many don't know that aspect of my personality in college. But I stand guilty to this crime. This is the reason why I can listen to anything from my seniors with a smile but I refuse to accept I am insincere or uninterested when it comes to studies or anything I am put in charge of.
I can be wrong, make a blunder or anything along those lines but insincere.
So currently I am in Medicine Ward... Things here are different in comparison with the Surgery Ward... And at times I accept I fall under the influence of others. Consequently I feel lost, withdraw from the group and sulk till I give myself a pep talk or talk my heart out with my special support system.
That brings us to another point - My Special Support System... lots to talk about this... But we can't have all disclosed in one go, right?
Will be back soon with more on this... Keep waiting...
Yours ever-so-promising
Khan
