For the past few days, I feel I have been subconsciously reviewing my life. Looking at it from a distant point of view. Going through it, I felt like I have lived so many different lives in this one life and who knows how far from the end it is right now...
Allah has been kind.
I had a beautiful life as a kid...My time in UAE - The land where dreams come true was just what it says like a dream coming true every moment. I had to face many challenges but now that I have overcome them I can say in that clichéd way - It was all a part of growing up.
I then had a brief stint in Aligarh, India... A short but interesting experience.
Then there was the year long stay in Kota, Rajasthan, India - The place where I learnt not only to compete in the Pre Medical Tests but also a lot about the world.
Another year, back at home but this time it was different. They say difficult times reveal the truth. I am really grateful to Allah for that time of test. Through it He revealed a lot to me...
Then it was a 6 month stay in Rampur... Less said the better - A lesson I learnt in detail while living there. However some real good things that happened then included the time I learnt to cook... Yes! I can cook well enough now. ;) And the most beautiful moments were those spent with my grandmom (nani). Nothing in the world can compete with their beauty.
And then on 19th August the beginning of a new life...(17th August according to the Dean records :p ).
I started college, the college of my dreams. I was finally admitted as a student of MBBS in the Jawaharlal Nehru Medical College, Aligarh Muslim University, India. Just thinking about it makes me happy all over again. And no one knows how many lives I lead now as I live through the 24 hours in the day... But believe me when I say I am enjoying every part of it...
I enjoy getting ready in a rush trying not to miss any of the essentials, deciding whether to have breakfast or be on time in class, rushing out to search for a cycle rickshaw, strolling to the college on better mornings, entering class searching for some faces, enjoying the lectures my way, trying to keep awake during some lectures or fighting hunger in others, slipping out of class to grab a bite before the next lecture starts, catching a glimpse of someone familiar in the canteen, smiling without realising, passing classmates in the corridors, waiting for the majority to return to class in a gang so that none are questioned, thinking of witty replies to the lecturer's rhetoric questions, having fun in the Histology Laboratory and then rocking the Dissection Lab or the Discussion Lab... (I have spoken about it earlier...) and then the Lab the Leave.. I mean Leave the Lab signalled by Sir's banging the table. I love every part of it. Love it when my friends try to calm my frayed nerves as soon as an exam, sessional or even a table viva comes up. Their eyes full of concern, so different from our fun times when they can poke enough fun to irritate me... And I like it when I can help someone, in any small way possible... The inner happiness - simply beautiful....
By now any one can make out how much there is to enjoy... Yes, there are times when I would just want to be invisible & not put up with the nonsense dished out by so many - whether on the way going to college and back or while at college...But as they say it's all a part of life. You have got to enjoy the rose with its thorns... There can be no rose without thorns... So I can satisfactorily say my life seems like a bed of roses...
Something here tells me it will be a part of my future. Then there is a fear what if it is not... But fears fade when someone smiles, someone compliments or when someone just passes by. It's like that someone says, "All will be well. Trust me."
I trust. I trust Allah. He has given me a lot more than what I expected. And I trust Him to give me a beautiful life ahead just like the ones he has given me till date...
Until Next Time
Your lively
Khan...Fatima Khan
Allah has been kind.
I had a beautiful life as a kid...My time in UAE - The land where dreams come true was just what it says like a dream coming true every moment. I had to face many challenges but now that I have overcome them I can say in that clichéd way - It was all a part of growing up.
I then had a brief stint in Aligarh, India... A short but interesting experience.
Then there was the year long stay in Kota, Rajasthan, India - The place where I learnt not only to compete in the Pre Medical Tests but also a lot about the world.
Another year, back at home but this time it was different. They say difficult times reveal the truth. I am really grateful to Allah for that time of test. Through it He revealed a lot to me...
Then it was a 6 month stay in Rampur... Less said the better - A lesson I learnt in detail while living there. However some real good things that happened then included the time I learnt to cook... Yes! I can cook well enough now. ;) And the most beautiful moments were those spent with my grandmom (nani). Nothing in the world can compete with their beauty.
And then on 19th August the beginning of a new life...(17th August according to the Dean records :p ).
I started college, the college of my dreams. I was finally admitted as a student of MBBS in the Jawaharlal Nehru Medical College, Aligarh Muslim University, India. Just thinking about it makes me happy all over again. And no one knows how many lives I lead now as I live through the 24 hours in the day... But believe me when I say I am enjoying every part of it...
I enjoy getting ready in a rush trying not to miss any of the essentials, deciding whether to have breakfast or be on time in class, rushing out to search for a cycle rickshaw, strolling to the college on better mornings, entering class searching for some faces, enjoying the lectures my way, trying to keep awake during some lectures or fighting hunger in others, slipping out of class to grab a bite before the next lecture starts, catching a glimpse of someone familiar in the canteen, smiling without realising, passing classmates in the corridors, waiting for the majority to return to class in a gang so that none are questioned, thinking of witty replies to the lecturer's rhetoric questions, having fun in the Histology Laboratory and then rocking the Dissection Lab or the Discussion Lab... (I have spoken about it earlier...) and then the Lab the Leave.. I mean Leave the Lab signalled by Sir's banging the table. I love every part of it. Love it when my friends try to calm my frayed nerves as soon as an exam, sessional or even a table viva comes up. Their eyes full of concern, so different from our fun times when they can poke enough fun to irritate me... And I like it when I can help someone, in any small way possible... The inner happiness - simply beautiful....
By now any one can make out how much there is to enjoy... Yes, there are times when I would just want to be invisible & not put up with the nonsense dished out by so many - whether on the way going to college and back or while at college...But as they say it's all a part of life. You have got to enjoy the rose with its thorns... There can be no rose without thorns... So I can satisfactorily say my life seems like a bed of roses...
Something here tells me it will be a part of my future. Then there is a fear what if it is not... But fears fade when someone smiles, someone compliments or when someone just passes by. It's like that someone says, "All will be well. Trust me."
I trust. I trust Allah. He has given me a lot more than what I expected. And I trust Him to give me a beautiful life ahead just like the ones he has given me till date...
Until Next Time
Your lively
Khan...Fatima Khan
wishing u all d best wishes for all ur "lives"... :)
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